Paid In Full

i was nowhere near ready when all it ended
我还没有准备好的时候一切却都结束了
so i hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you
我多么希望我们会重新开始，没有你我活不下去
you gave me the chance, time and again, in vain
你给了我机会，一次又一次，那都是徒劳的
now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full
现在我对你的感觉，每滴眼泪，每个微笑，都全部付清了
break the chain, but no longer can i take the pain
挣断锁链，我不再感到痛苦
it's hard for me to love myself right now
现在让我爱自己很难
i've waited, hated, blamed it all on you
我已经等过，恨过，全都怪你
needed to be strong, yet i was always too weak
我需要坚强，但我总是太软弱
so i can only blame myself for this state we are in
我对我们这个状态只能责怪我自己
i will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
我要拿走那些我曾经给你的，如果还不算晚的话
did you change? i did too. love can grow from the last grain
你改变了吗？我改变了，爱可以从最后的谷粒中生长出来
it's hard for me to love myself right now
现在让我爱自己很难
i've waited, hated, blamed it all on
我已经等过，恨过，这全都怪
you
你
i need you, less and less
我对你的需要越来越少
every day feeds this moral decay
每天都在滋长这种坏感
yet i have grown to love you even more
但我在爱你中成长
i fall back, and i turn another cheek
我退却了而且我转过另一边脸
you mouth the words you're not ready to speak
你心不在焉地说着从没想作过的话
you're scared of me now, no i never had a clue
你说你怕失去我，我一点也没看出来
that i'd become so much stronger than you
我会变得比你更坚强
music...
音乐
i will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
我要拿走那些我曾经给你的，如果还不算晚的话
if you like, i will leave, i will not miss the last train again
如果你喜欢，我会离开，我不会再错过最后一班火车
it's hard for me to love myself right now
现在让我爱自己很难
i've waited, hated, blamed it all on you
我已经等过，恨过，这全都怪你
it's hard for me to love your face right now
现在我很难爱上你的脸
i'm waiting, hating, needing being
我一直在等，一直恨着
me
自己
i need you less and less
我对你的需要越来越少
every day leads us farther away
每天我们都越来越远
from that moment
在那一刻
it's hard for me to hate myself right now
现在让我恨自己很难
finally i understand me
最终我终于明白了我自己
one day we may have a new me and you
终有一天我们会有新的你和我
but first i need to learn to love me too
我首先学会爱我自己