Save Yourself

And i know you think you know me
我知道，你觉得自己了解我
But you don’t know where i’ve been
但你不了解我所处于的困境
I’m a mess
我现在一片混乱
What's happiness when you just fxxk it up again?
若你再遇到困难，我可能都不知道什么是幸福了
I might lose my way
我可能会失去方向
I might not come back
我可能会无法恢复
I know you try to stay to help
我知道你试着留下来帮助我
But go and save yourself
但请离开我，去拯救你自己吧
This ain’t a way to be livin', i get it
这不是一种生活的方法, 我知道的
Didn’t know bad it was until you actually said it
直到你真正说出来，我才意识到有多糟糕
Breakin' down but tellin' everyone i’m fine
即使很崩溃，但我依然和别人说我很好
I know i promised I would talk before i crossed that line again but didn’t
我记得和你承诺过再遇到麻烦会说出来，但我没有
Yeah, i guess that's just the way my head works
或许这是我唯一能想到的办法了
Open up another couple scars before you mend yours
在你伤口还没恢复之前又给你带来伤害
I don't learn from watching others crash, i gotta wreck first
我没有从别人的不幸学会珍惜，而是先学会了破坏
'cause i don't think that love is really love until you get hurt, yeah
因为我不认为那是真正的爱，直到受伤之后
And i know what you think
我知道你的想法
Said it's hard to love me when i don't love myself and i'm on the brink
你曾说过，在我不懂得照顾自己、处于崩溃边缘的时候很难去爱我
Of trading in this sobriety for a fxxking drink
只能用酒精麻醉自己
And i don’t wanna talk about it till we’re bout to sink, yeah
在我们宿醉之前，我都不想谈论它
Maybe i just need a day off
也许我只是需要休息
Maybe i’m just more fxxking comfortable in the chaos
也许我只是需要在这种混乱的情绪中放松下来
You say you love me, so you stay on
你说你很爱我，所以留下来陪伴我
Invested all your time and wonder when it’s gonna pay off, huh?
倾尽你所有的时间陪伴我，期盼着哪天能让我恢复，是吧？
And i know you think you know me
我知道，你觉得自己了解我
But you don’t know where i’ve been
但你不了解我所处于的困境
I’m a mess, what's happiness
我现在一片混乱
When you just f*ck it up again?
若你再遇到困难，我可能都不知道什么是幸福了
I might lose my way
我可能会失去方向
I might not come back
我可能会无法恢复
I know you try to stay to help
我知道你试着留下来帮助我
But go and save yourself
但请离开我，去拯救你自己吧
So afraid of the failure that now i'm barely livin'
我非常害怕失败只能苟且生存
Spent a lifetime of working with nothin' left to give it
付出了一生的时间在工作上，最后也一无所有
Lookin' back at the things we been through and feel i miss it
回过头看我们曾经在一起生活的日子，让人非常想念
I been running forever, i don’t know how you didn’t
我一直拼命工作从未停歇，不知道你现在怎么样了
When you’re sitting right next to me, don’t know where i go
即使当你坐在我旁边时，也不知道我所想的是什么
I’m in my head with these songs and pick apart every note
这些歌在我脑海里，每一个音符都记忆犹新
These insecurities killing me but i never show
那些不安全感几乎快让我窒息，但我从未吐露
The things i’m thinking are probably worse than you’ll ever know
那些我正心烦的事，可能比你想象的更严重
Yeah, we been feeling like we can’t move
我们都感到身不由己
Same house, same walls, but a different view
现在已经物是人非了
Spending time avoiding this inconvenient truth
只能让时间冲刷那些我不愿去面对的事实
I got some problems and i’m sick of trying to blame you
遇到问题不再去责怪你
'cause i feel, like i been, on my own, in my head
因为我只能去独自面对
The light goes, and i see you fall when standing beside me
灯光亮起，我看见你站在我身边一副失落的模样
And every night i lie awake
每个晚上我都睡不着
Tryin' to fight but every day, i'm feeling less, feeling less like me
拼命地挣扎，但日复一日我感觉越来越不像我自己了
Still waiting for me to open up
依旧在等我敞开心扉
She ain't cheating, just fantasizing bout who i was
她没有欺骗，只是幻想着我的样子
Fell in love with this image that i portray, but know it ain't a lie
爱上了我给她所描述的这个形象，但我知道这不是个谎言
It's who i want to be at the end of the day
她是我愿陪伴终生的人
I know the feelings and the thoughts will keep me down
我知道这些思绪会让我变得失落
Depression and anxiety, hanging inside the clouds
沮丧和焦虑遍布云端
No matter where i go, they keep following me around
无论我在哪，这些情绪都缠绕着我
And you think that one day, i can make it out
你觉得有一天我能够挣脱
And i know you think you know me
我知道，你觉得自己了解我
But you don’t know where i’ve been
但你不了解我所处于的困境
I’m a mess, what's happiness
我现在一片混乱
When you just fxxk it up again?
若你再遇到困难，我可能都不知道什么是幸福了
I might lose my way
我可能会失去方向
I might not come back
我可能会无法恢复
I know you try to stay to help
我知道你试着留下来帮助我
But go and save yourself
但请离开我，去拯救你自己吧