Last Letter

I miss, I mi—, I miss you
我想念，我想念，我想念你
Eh, **** it!
嗯，糟糕！
This might be the hardest song I've ever had to write
这也许是我写过的最难的歌了
Yeah, I dreamt about you last night
是的，昨晚我梦见你了
I only see you when I close my eyes tight
只有当我闭上双眼，我才看见你
Yeah, I wish I told you how I felt before you left
是的，我希望在你离开之前告诉你我的感受
But it just never felt right
但它从来没有感觉正确
Yeah, *crying*
是的，哭
I wish I told you everything before you left
我希望我在你离开之前把一切都告诉你
I won't forget the day that they found the growth in your chest
我永远不会忘记他们发现你胸部发育的那一天
The cancer took ahold of your body and then it spread
癌症带到你的身体，然后蔓延
I talk to you more now than I ever did—I'm a mess
我跟你现在比我以前—很混乱
This song will never capture the pain that I could express
这首歌永远无法捕捉我能表达的痛苦
I learned from you that nothing is perfect, but try your best
我从你那里学到没有什么是完美的，但要尽你最大的努力
I know you had your demons that younger me didn't get
我知道你有你的恶魔，年轻的我没有得到
And out of all our demons, our biggest might be regret
在我们所有的恶魔中，我们最大的可能是后悔
Relate more than ever, remember back when I would only see you every other week
比以往任何时候都更重要，记得我每隔一周只见到你一次
And every other Wednesday, you would take us out to eat
每隔一个星期三，你都会带我们出去吃饭
Mom and you had split, so we're living in between
妈妈和你分开了，所以我们生活在之间
Looking up the word "divorced" to understand what it could mean
查找“离婚”这个词来理解它可能意味着什么
But I don't understand, Mom is with another man
但我不明白，妈妈跟另一个男人
You been drinking heavier, to me it was just another can
你喝得更重了，对我来说这只是另一种
Culture full of broken homes, we were just another fam
文化充满了破碎的家庭，我们只是一家
Coulda left like other dads, you, you had another plan
会留下像其他父亲一样，你，你有另一个计划
So you stuck around, dealt a life that you probably would never choose
所以你被困住了，过着你可能永远不会选择的生活
You bottled it inside and that bottle turned into booze
你把它装瓶，瓶子变成了酒
The Jäger took ahold and your body took the abuse
你的身体受到了虐待
But finally found sobriety, cried when I got the news
但终于找到了清醒的头脑，当我得到消息的时候哭了
I know, been hurting more than I show
我知道，伤害比我表现的要多
Inspired by your story, couple things you should know
灵感来自你的故事，你应该知道的几件事
I met this girl at my show, teared up by what I was told
我遇见了这个女孩，泪流满面的告诉我
She said, "I'm sober 'cause of you, you do way more than you know"
她说：“我很清醒，因为你，你做的比你知道的还要多”
And I said—
我说
And I said, "Ohh, please grant me the serenity
我说，“哦，请赐予我平静
To accept everything I cannot change"
接受我无法改变的一切"
You, you always told me that
你，你总是告诉我
Do anything to have you back; see you one day
做任何事让你回来;见到你的一天
I, I wonder if you see me when I fall, yeah
我，我想知道当我坠落时你是否看见我，是的
I wonder if you hear me now at all
我不知道你现在是否听到我的声音
Maybe if the world played this through speakers
也许如果这个世界是通过扬声器播放的
I'd be loud enough to reach you, and you'll hear
我会大声地向你伸出，你会听到的
My last letter for you
我给你的最后一封信
And I don't understand how you would stay so optimistic
我不明白你怎么会这么乐观
You started chemo, fought the battle, never quit
你开始化疗，进行斗争，决不放弃
That really left an imprint
真的留下了印记
And we would talk about our lives and after this
我们会谈论我们的生活
How we would live 'em different
我们如何生活在不同的地方
See, Mom and you would put your differences aside
看，妈妈，你会把你的分歧放在一边
Every day she would visit, see the love and your vision
她每天都会去探望你，看到你的爱和你的梦想
See the hurt in your smile, your wisdom is what I'm missing the most
看到你脸上的痛苦，你的智慧是我最怀念的
I'll never be ready to let you go
我永远都不会让你走的
I never felt so helpless, it's outta both our control
我从未感到如此的无助，那不是我们的控制
You told me how you wanted to travel, next year you'll go
你告诉我你想去旅行，明年你要去
And your body had become fragile, not once did you lose your soul
你的身体变得脆弱，你的灵魂一次也没有失去
We were told, it was progressing and you had less than a week
我们被告知，它在进步，而你只有不到一周的时间
True love is every tear when we told you we had to leave
当我们告诉你我们必须离开时，真正的爱是每一滴眼泪
And how we would converse it, not once did we need to speak
我们将如何交谈，而不是一次我们需要说话
That one day in late October you passed away in your sleep
10月下旬的某一天，你在睡梦中死去
I been cryin' when I think about it
当我想起的时候，我一直在哭泣
I miss your smile, miss your laugh, and now I live without it
我想念你的微笑，想念你的笑声，现在我没有它生活
I told you music was my passion, and you never doubt it
我告诉过你，音乐是我的激情，你从不怀疑
And people tell me they relate, but now I truly doubt it
人们告诉我他们的关系，但现在我真的怀疑了
Remember cryin' on your grave and yellin' up to you, "How did I lose my way?"
记得在你的坟墓上哭泣和尖叫了你，“我是怎么失去了我的方式？”
I won't forget that summer was some of my darkest days
我不会忘记那年夏天是我最黑暗的日子
Was asking for a sign, sat in my tears and prayed
我在请求一个信号，坐在我的眼泪里祈祷
When I saw that sign you sent me, that day was forever changed
当我看到你送我的那一天，那一天永远改变了
I know, I know, I should've been a better me
我知道，我知道，我应该是一个更好的我
Oh, blame me when we argue, I said things I didn't mean
噢，当我们争论的时候，我说的不是我的意思
Me and you are who our issues should have always been between
我和你是我们的问题应该一直在
So I'm sorry for the lack of communication from me
所以我很抱歉没有和我交流
I just wish that you were here, so you could watch me win a Grammy
我只是希望你在这里，所以你可以看我赢得格莱美奖
But more importantly to build a family
但更重要的是建立一个家庭
I hope I make you proud and become everything I can be
我希望我能让你骄傲，成为我能成为的一切
I hope they play it loud and send this letter where I can't reach
我希望他们大声演奏，把这封信送到我无法到达的地方
Sincerely, Mark
真诚的，标志
And I said, "Ohh, please grant me the serenity
我说，“哦，请赐予我平静
To accept everything I cannot change"
接受我无法改变的一切
You, you always told me that
你，你总是告诉我
Do anything to have you back; see you one day
做任何事让你回来;见到你的一天
I, I wonder if you see me when I fall, yeah
我，我想知道当我坠落时你是否看见我，是的
I wonder if you hear me now at all
我不知道你现在是否听到我的声音
Maybe if the world played this through speakers
也许如果这个世界是通过扬声器播放的
I'd be loud enough to reach you, and you'll hear
我会大声地向你伸出，你会听到的
My last letter for you
我给你的最后一封信