broken memories

Do you feel alone right now？
你现在感到孤独吗？
I mean
我的意思是
I'd like to believe that I'm not, but I just...
我想相信我不是，但我只是...
I've just never seen any proof, so I...
但我只是...我从来没有见过任何证据，所以我...
I just don't debate it anymore
我只是不再辩论了
You know
你知道吗
it's like I could spend my whole life debating it over and over again
就像我可以花一辈子的时间一遍又一遍地辩论它
weighting the pro's and con's and in the end
加重亲和骗局
I still wouldn't have any proof，so I just...
最后我还是没有任何证据，所以我只是...
I just don't debate it anymore
我只是不辩论它了
heh...it's absurd
这太荒谬了
The search for God is absurd?
寻求上帝是荒谬的？