Heartbeat (Freestyle)

Tonight feels like the worst night of my life It's like the world is endin
Why can't I do one thing right
Except this form of self expression
Every breath I take is painful
Shit went left I lost direction
Now I'm left with nothing
Just a twisted lie and my reflection
**** a happy ending
This is real life, no fabrication
I wake up tired I wake up dead inside, I have no motivation
My mind and my body's devided
I just can't handle this seperation
Listen I can't even hide it
Every song I write's a contemplation
Yall know I come with the bars
Ink on my body to cover the scars
I light a blunt then I fly with the stars I'm in a world of my own
I'm on Mars
All of my secrets they tear me apart
Shit that you won't even see from afar
DRB I'll always be in the dark
This ain't no beat, it's the beat of my heart
Yeah, I ain't got nothin to prove
Yall know what happens when I'm on the track
I'm puttin nails in coffins
Y'all must have forgot, so lemme remind I'm back
Better than ever, but sadder than ever
Depression is tearin and makin me crack
Pull out December I'll make you remember those feelins you tried to leave in the past
I ain't pretendin I'm meetin my destiny
There ain't no savin me
Nobody's blessin me I don't make friends
I make money and enemies
And I'm still keepin a hidden identity I'm undercover, it's killin me mentally
My only medicine's makin these melodies
Pain in these verses is my only therapy
My only purpose is leavin a legacy
Tonight feels like the worst night of my life
It's like the world is endin
Why can't I do one thing right
Except this form of self expression
Every breath I take is painful
Shit went left I lost direction
Now I'm left with nothing
Just a twisted lie and my reflection
Bitch I'm what a prophet is
Yeah we're polar opposites
I'm losin my consciousness
My future is ominous
No one know me, just the old me I remain anonymous
I can't just erase my sins, I gotta face the consequence
Nothin's next, I reached the end
My time is up, don't cry for me
I gave it my best
But I just don't mesh with society
I lost myself entirely
Consumed by my anxiety
When I move on from all this ****en pain
I'll do it silently
I never accepted myself cause nobody else did, my life was a lie
I'm always hurtin myself when I'm all by myself
It's like I'm only waitin' to die
I've given up but I had a good run
Listen I swear that I tried and I tried
I just decided I'm sayin' goodbye
So if you need me look up to the sky
I'm gone