Lose in wanting

In one flash
I am returned again
It's just something you can't see
The single thing
I fear the most within
Gathers slowly up inside me
Ready to take me
I can feel it burning up inside my head
When I lose in wanting everything I said
Who will there be waiting
As this silence followed
Leads me to its end
Every day
My only game to win
Brings a prize I can't defend
And in your place
No new instructions sent
Got no plans for where I'm going
No memory where I've been