Need You Know

I just
I just hope they can feel my pain
Yeah
Thinking Sierra my soul mate
Funny how she almost fell for me then she left my heart up in a cold place
Now I'm really having flashbacks, talking high school that was '08
When I had a crush on Akeela but I was too shy so we went on no dates
Thirteen for me was the worst, cause I was going through something Today it still hurts
Preacher was reciting the verse while I was plotting on collection plates in the church
Cause we were living in debt
And I hear my parents always arguing about rent
Daddy used to get a check
But he had to close the shop so things were left
Pour that liquor down
I need brown, I got Crown in it
They don't feel my pain
Not the same let me drown in it
I lose my mind in the late night
I don't smoke **** I can't take flight
I suffer from social anxiety
People say hi to me, picture my day like
I was thinking buy a lottery ticket
If I win Imma get drunk and
Rent a house and party with women
Brainwashed from the rapper life
Almost everybody that I always envisioned
See when you're not behind bars your mind could still be locked in the system
Stoppin', I'm thinking, I'm wi****ng yeah
Caught up in my life and all the times I've been down
I can feel the pain I need something to numb me now
Pour me up a drink, disappear I'm not around
Today I feel alone and I really need you now yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah
I want the world but I don't wanna lose my soul
I want a girl who can look deep in my eyes and tell me things I didn't know
Plus I'm learning not to get mad over situations that I cannot control
But its hard when its stuck in your mind
Like its a certain way that its supposed to go
Dad never showed me the ropes
I been reminiscing it been hard on my mind lately
Cause he was always in the house
Yeah but its my brother who raised me
Life is so crazy, all these people acting like my friends
So they all moving shady, it never fazed me I've been dealing with it daily
Done nothing and they hate me
Pour that liquor down
I need brown I got Crown in it
They don't feel my pain
Not the same let me drown in it
I lose my mind in the late night
I don't smoke ****, I can't take flight
I suffer from social anxiety
People say hi to me picture my day like
In my room still trapped all alone
Negative thoughts suppressing my dome
Only way that I can deal with it
No one never that will pick up the phone
Maybe I don't want to talk about it
Maybe you feel empty but your mind is crowded
I be fine, I doubt it
Pressure on a thousand and I can't take it so I feel like shouting
Caught up in my life and all the times I've been down
I can feel the pain I need something to numb me now
Pour me up a drink, disappear I'm not around
Today I feel alone and I really need you now yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah
Need you now yeah yeah