Pain You Keep

You hate me and you love me
Please, I'm sorry for the pain you keep
I cause that sh!t, blame this on me
'Cause ain't nobody pray for me
Rest tight too for I can't sleep
You're pushin' back away from me
You hate me and you love me
Please, I'm sorry for the pain you keep
Lost in my mind
Ho give me brain but don't look in my eyes
Goin' insane, see the pain in my eyes
I got way too much damn weight on my spine
Cigarette burns on my arm and my face
In my whole body, she love how I look
I cannot name all the drugs that I took
I need the cash, I need all the loot
I read these hoes like they all were some books
Get to this cake like I need it or something
Maybe that's just 'cause I needed that money
Self-made, I'm eighteen and doin' this sh!ts
I was like fifteen and movin' this sh!t
Fxck, I'ma run my money up
Shawty in the club, bad as fxck, tryna join the club
That ***** said she loved that I'm young and I don't give a fxck
She said I'm a **** boy and she wanna fxck
You hate me and you love me
Please, I'm sorry for the pain you keep
I cause that sh!t, blame this on me
'Cause ain't nobody pray for me
Rest tight too for I can't sleep
You're pushin' back away from me
You hate me and you love me
Please, I'm sorry for the pain you keep
Hold the fxck up, I hope that I wake up
Told my b!tch she too perfect without it, don't need makeup
And I know that we doomed, ain't a single thing could save us
Everyday it's like we break up, make up, make love
Tomorrow we do the same stuff
That sorrow, I ain't fakin' it, couldn't even if I wanted
Mary Jane everyday, got a need just to stay blunted
Needless to say insanity stayed with me since the youngin'
Yeah, I hustle 'cause I need it, I don't even really want it
Hundred dollar half ounces, I keep that sh!t in abundance
Said fxck it and copped the Rafs, b!tch I'm stuntin'
Her lips taste like raspberries, something that you'd dream about
Tuck game crazy like the type a girl you'd read about
Gettin' high, askin' my grandpa if he could see me now
That's some other sh!t, fxck the lovin' sh!t, come again
B!tch I said I'm on my "I think I'm Jesus' second coming" sh!t
******ed a year ago, figuratively comin' quick
You hate me and you love me
Please, I'm sorry for the pain you keep
I cause that sh!t, blame this on me
'Cause ain't nobody pray for me
Rest tight too for I can't sleep
You're pushin' back away from me
You hate me and you love me
Please, I'm sorry for the pain you keep